Yep, I am struggling. So help me God I am struggling.
Reallly trying to find out if I want to continue on my running journey. It is getting so hard to fit it in with my life. To juggle all the balls and not let anything slip.
I am on the verge of injury again. Painful hip, sore/tight ITB. I need to run for mental clarity and fitness but can I bear another block of time on the sidelines? Do I just give it all in and turn back to the world of weightlifting and gym where I was less injury prone? (though I do recall the habit of dropping the free weights on my toes!!)
I guess the real question is - am I going to go to New York for the NYM? I'll take the next week to work out with my husband and my running buddy if we are going. I won't go alone and I won't go unsupported.
If yes - I have something to aim and train for.
If no - I have no reason to run (I'll always run for fitness but I'm referring to TRAINING type of run).
I told you I was struggling. A weekend of watching all my mates start and finish their respective races across the globe has not helped my internal fight for a semblance of focus on my own goals. I am so amazed and happy and shocked and amused and encouraged at all their results. It really has given some inspiration to sort myself out...so one more week of struggling...then decisions must be made and plans drawn up.
